**Not What it Seems** a students refection of academia

Jacqueline Jones Royster reflects on the experience of having one's "subjectivity" denied or disrespected in academic culture. My experiences reveal about voice, difference, and what may be gained and/or lost through membership in the "academic discourse community"? Here is the "scene" of a proposal for a peace mural project that has been shot down and built up simulataneously by the same poeople of academia!

I think that students are very much underminded as to what they can accomplish by the academic culture. Most hard working students keep odd hours to keep everything a float and their lives are very hard to keep up with. They balance a minimum of 4 schedules and yes rescheduling is just part of how it works. I have also found that mulptiple studies students are continually trying to follow many academic roads simultaneously. Although this accomplishment of multitasking would be seemingly valued in our culture it seems to not be. I serve 6 areas of study and they all want claim for themselves and seem not to value my input because I come from too many, although if one listens to me they can see the connections between my studies. But yet I am just an undergrad student. In fact when financial aid cut off aid for having too many credits

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My "cross-cultural exchange" became contact zones with individuals I really did not think were.